|"Back in Mother Russia, when we had a love interest, we would say 'Ты держишь мое сердце Заложники товарищ'."|
Thoughts are keeping me up..... and this music, its quite mellow BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT. I feel tired but when I lay in bed I'm just tossing and turning, pondering to myself about the things I've done in the past. I'm not grieving on them but rather how big of an adventure is has been the day I was born. I cried, I laughed, I loved, I also have been loved by a couple of people. Yet one thing that disappoints me the most is how much people change these days, one day I'll be talking to them the next I don't hear from them in months. Quite strange but still its not my place to say since I have also changed a lot too. My mischief life of being a young teen are soon coming to an end. A part of me is going to miss it all. The people I've met these past years, I would like to say thank you all for the support and care you given me. Mikey, you've been through quite but you still are and to this able to keep your spirits up, thank you for talking to me those times when I was just sitting in my room in the dark around midnight. Justice, I honestly do think we will be great friends for a long long time and when I move out to Santa Barbara I'll be sure to invite you to hang out with my brother and I. Cameron, you've done so much for me and our country, yes we've had many arguments in the past but that's all in the past, thank you for being such a good friend I could never repay you. Kasia, I know you don't wish to get back together and that is fine by me but I will still say this, thank you for the love you've given me, first girlfriend, first kiss, thank you really. Will, thank you so much for the laughs and listening to my rants late at night, we've sure had some swell times and I'm certain we'll be friends for a long time. Tarek, well we're practically related but still thank you for all the great times we had in the past since we were really young. Taylor, the conversations we've had in the past are too memorable to forget, thank you for bearing my emotional break downs and listening to me, you truly have my respect. Dylan, you were my first ever friend here on dA I know in the past I was really weird and huge jerk but I thank you for still being my friend for these past three years I've been on here. Jason, aahh Jason, where to even begin? I honestly never thought we would be such good friends, we both cheer each others spirits up when we felt down in the dumps, we would say things that would make us feel good about ourselves and that's what friends do, you are an excellent friend and I really do wish we could talk more often like we used to. Patrick, I know I've been a jerk to you a few time, sorry about all that, but the fact you're still my friend surprises me to this day, you're a swell guy and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. Vanyah, I would to say thank you again for the birthday gift but also to tell you that you're a very talented artist and I really do hope you achieve your goals, like I've said before, you're a very admirable person and I've already told you why, good luck with everything my friend. Good luck to all of you guys, I hope nothing bad happens to any of you. Yes, that part of me is going to miss those memorable times of my teenage life but yet another part me isn't going to miss it. There were times where I have slipped into a depression phase that would last about a good month or two, those feelings I wont miss at all. If I didn't have such good friend I wouldn't know what would have happened to me. My future though is looking very bright and I am eager to start right now but of course a good amount of me wants to wait enjoy the last year of not having to worry about paying taxes and all that stuff. I found this house and my mother is very interested in moving in it, hopefully we can finally move soon and I can finally enjoy the last bit of youth I have left. I'll be sure to let you guys know when I'm moving just because I can. Things right now are okay I guess but I still plenty ahead of me and its only going to get better if I just tell myself it will. If you read this whole journal then I thank you for caring because this journal has finally come to an end.
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